Beating the Lung infection hopefully & More about my mental disorder in detail
I have realized I am a slow-witted idiot. Hopefully I beat this lung infection thing. I got other viruses I need to take meds for temporarily. But I won’t bring it up anymore unless something new occurs.
If it was lung cancer or something serious, I would hope that all my future I lost is left to Wesley’s children.
Gotta listens to some George carlin to cheer me up. I also hate that when I talk about my beliefs on certain things, I get judged but I understand this country and other countries are constantly at war over many things.
Maybe a lot of my personal beliefs are just not grounded in reality, maybe I will never join the CIA or just be an asset when my parents die if the inheritance lawyer recruits me or just gives me my millions and my properties to live off of. You may wonder, Gabe, you will be fine, just finish school etc. I will finish school at all costs, trust me I got no other choice, but besides needing Adderall etc. I do know that my parents are in their 60s and I am 29.
So, by the time I am in my 30s I should finish all school in 5 years or less, hopefully. I will pray to your God, to my God, to the God of monkeys of evolution to finish. I am so happy I get to offend so many Christians, Christianity dragged me through the mud, it made me believe in a lot of nonsense.
I will probably need my medications for the rest of my life, or at least until I have a stable partner who can watch over me every day, like a girlfriend who loves me. The only guy I would ever fall in love with is Josh Flagg, but I just got an unhealthy crush on him because he is rich and so sarcastic. LOL.
In reality the truth is, I have bipolar mania, and without the antipsychotic, I don’t get leveled out etc. I wish I could explain further what caused me to hit on my teacher, which one of my friends in the rehab thought was funny. But I actually realized I probably hurt her feelings and I cried in pain when I was locked up realizing I took everything to far, and I was off my meds for a few months and I was stable, I am not sure where I went wrong.
In reality my writing probably is just more for myself and to the young children who are 13+ or whatever who like what I say. I hope the adults like it as well, I think I have typed enough. If I got lung cancer though you guys would know, maybe let people visit me in the hospital if I was dying, nah I don’t know maybe some privacy.
Good luck have a great day enjoy. Wondering if I should work on my music today which I need to, I got time before school starts, and I got game design stuff. But the day I ever decide to quit or whatever I would leave lots of posts downloadable and maybe post once a week, hopefully I never get tired of this job. I may not get paid for what I do, but why do I get the motivation to share my life and thoughts with the world? Is that a bad thing in itself? And does everyone have to agree with my beliefs? No they do not. Maybe in my 50s I quit? Not sure haha. I am looking way to far into the future.
I will find more George in the near future.
Fuck Wit Dre Day (And Everybody’s Celebratin’)
Let Me Ride
Dr. Dre – The Day The Niggaz Took Over
Dr. Dre – Lil Ghetto Boy
Bitches Ain’t Shit
Chris Brown slow reverb Indigo Woah
George Carlin Airpot security
