Talking about Goblin, Erick Khan and in depth message and background
I will talk about Goblin for a little while. I think Goblin is just wasting his time, buying views, and likes for his videos. Once I saw an Erick Khan video have like 1,000 likes before it had 20 views, when I subscribed.
Let me explain, smoking weed in general is not the bad thing in itself, it can be medical or it can be super fun. Like I said what happened to me, it fucked me up big time, and I attacked someone I loved. Not sure why, I was on the antipsychotic as well, maybe it was a reaction.
But you know how people say “Stoners” do not achieve anything, this is exactly what I mean, these stoners will never achieve anything great. Now look if I fail at my dreams I just pick myself back up, so if I fail a class as a student I go back stronger than ever and do my thing, and try till I succeed. I think Erick Khan and Goblin could have been more successful in their lives had they focused on things that mattered, I also feel like Goblin and Eric, are undercover cops’ kind of.
I just feel like they would get people in trouble, for cocaine and other things, so mad respect to them for being federali narcs, and all that, but they will never achieve greatness in general. Even if I only had this website and achieved all my greatness with just my music and my blog, I will be remembered for all eternity by millions, and with my inheritance fly out to my service provider or something to see if I can make a deal so they carry on my domain for eternity, and I leave them a lot of money to help.
Now hopefully my story is not just that sad and short, and hopefully I do end up making this great game of RuneScape, maybe I will have to work at game design companies that will take me before I could ever go to Jagex (the company I love the most.) I did a major fuck up in my life, where I didn’t go to school for like 5 or 6 years when on probation, I think I was bitter that I couldn’t get high anymore off anything. Come to think of it, yeah I was a confused and bitter person, and now I am trying to be a better person.
Anyways I recorded for like 1 hour and 30 minutes today 6 songs and we got 6 more songs to record, I am exhausted as hell, I mixed it up with singing and rap even on the same songs. I also don’t understand how people like my brother Jeremy who lives in Germany have such a happy attitude toward life, I hate life so much on so many levels, I wish short cuts did exist, now maybe when I get my inheritance some short cuts will exist etc. But till then, I deal with the “harsh realities” I am going to take this benzo tonight and accept defeat at 8:33pm, so tired.
Going to do things on my schedule, got to work on my next album which should have 20 songs or less from now on, because the 16 tracks I am making for you guys (it will have a bonus track with no vocals) is going to cost me a total of 2,400 dollars, worth it but it is a high price for my music producer to come to my home etc.
I used to record at Hit squad studios in Orlando and Plush. I made an album at Plush I am not proud of, that I had to delete, maybe a few good songs on it but I had to let it go, and Hit squad I recorded not so well, but look how much better I did on Captain on the “Saint Lucifer Experience” and “Shady God” etc.
I got a lot of things planned to come up enjoy let it be a surprise. Hopefully haters can sometimes convert into fans, I was watching some Dragon Ball Super I got all 10 seasons on YouTube, it motivates me to live a better life here on earth.
While you may think my sort of blogging is unique, I am sure some celebrities have done blogs or journals that are personal, some have released it to a degree, and others have not, its possible Drake once blogged the way I did, before he made it big, I do not think I want to make it big like him, however I want to perform when I am much older and being a game designer, performing stand up and doing music goes last, school is vastly more important then anything I have come to realize that.
But I promise when I get the suspension of the school lifted hopefully on May 9th, after like a 2 hour hearing on zoom, then I will have to be off the benzo and focus on Adderall hopefully, before then I get it as long as I get approved, and I can focus on studying all the time for the dumb civic, and register in the future for classes.
I probably typed to much for today, man isn’t typing on computers how serial killers get caught, but hey I got nothing to hide, I drink bubbly water and take benzos when I am bored “prescribed” and have an escort friend or 2, and don’t hire any others because so many scams on these ads and stuff, they also do everything I like, I prefer the white thin one, who has gained a little weight which I don’t mind, compared to the thick Hispanic one who has given it to me bare before, but I will use protection from now on, the Hispanic one licks my feet and sucks my toes, she gets to ticklish, but the white girl won’t go near my feet, but she has gotten used to me licking her feet and sucking her toes. She is worth the price ouch.
Trying to Survive in prison as a first time offender
Trappin in paradise 87
If you control snipe, you win the game (halo infinite)
Post Malone lofi hip hop
(21 grams later…) 18+ video (he smokes weed in it) (click here if link doesn’t work 18+ they smoke weed on it)
Times Up Ryan Celsius Sounds
