2 experiences where I may have been assaulted as an adult in my sleep
Not talking about the time as a kid that occurred when I was awake, going to talk about when I was knocked out. Why do I have flash backs at night sometimes.
One experience was with my ex boyfriend in his 50s, and he may have told me things like “I liked eating your ass in your sleep.” Weird things like that, and he drank vodka like every day, he had to drink. Why? To probably kill his conscious.
Not sure if he had women around me also who paid to have turns with me because I do remember a little bit getting hard for women and I was asleep. Why not invite them when I was awake.
The other time which is hit or miss was when I tried meth the first time at a 3some with 2 guys older then me they put the Meth Bong in my face so fast, that it just happened, I didn’t know what it was. And later one leaves, and the other one gives me some GHB which is a liquid that is like the date rape drug, and you can take it to sleep if you’re on meth but in some cases these perverted guys probably had their way with me when I passed out on the bed of their apartment.
So I am very paranoid about meeting new people, even if I meet a new girl who may or may not date me, based on me being 30 with no job and still in school and a little overweight, because they would cheat on their boyfriends for thin studs, and not only that some of these girls belong in jail or rehab and they talk a lot of shit about people like me with a website they are complete cowards.
I say that seriously, I do nothing wrong on this website, I just talk about my life and some act like that is a very serious offense.
And the one time my parents arranged me I get arranged with a girl who got mad at my comment about me saying “I think they took my face for cartoons like Spongebob and Courage the Cowardly dog.”
One girl I met when she was 16 but we never did anything and when she was 18 (she was the daughter of my mother’s first maid) and she wanted to hang out with me all the time, I never slept with her, I know she wanted a commitment, later on in life I wanted a commitment but she was busy plus she got fired because she charges an arm and a leg to clean, the new one is much better and affordable.
And one girl who is the daughter of my handy man Jorge, she was beautiful but I just didn’t feel good at the time, and she probably thought I was weird. And she loved Rihanna so maybe I could have cliqued, I just don’t take a chance a lot.
The only guy I have ever dated was that older guy from a long time ago, and the rest were flings just being a bad bad boy, sometimes sober and sometimes on meth. Most sober I believe.
And I kicked that one girl out for making fun of me for the cartoon comment. Why can’t a girl just get me, and like what I do. I need like a woman, or a young 19 or 20 year old white or Hispanic fan girl who can tolerate my shit. Or a woman, a real woman. But I do like thin or medium for their size. I swear I may try this similar drug to Ozempic soon since the school is being a bitch about me taking my medication, they acted like I was going to shoot someone. Like the one time I said Lucifer in class in high school and some woman misinterpreted that. I just like the story of the devil, and it’s a fictional book so don’t start.
The older boyfriend he invited in the future his sister and her daughter who was like so young, and he tried putting her shoes to my face, because he liked licking my feet, so I got a little pissed, it was part of me hating him. I went to counseling for my problems. Our conversations were superficial, and I still don’t forgive the girl who was a bitch to me about the cartoon, they did take my face 3 moles, and I can’t sue anyone for that so get over it then.
Maybe no more posting for tonight
Let me go back to working on my lyrics and doing my music. Here you go some videos:
Jay-z Kingdom Come
SZA CTRL
Jay-Z Kanye West Watch the Throne Slowed Reverb playlist
For All The Dogs Drake (here you go)
