A Conspiracy, a Delusion, or a lie, or the truth?

I can’t figure it out, which of the 4 of it is it. I feel like good cops watch me and they talk to me sometimes and they guide me. And they can also explain to me things and I interpret them it is like the CIA almost like I can hear their voice. Maybe they watch as we drive as they talk, at times who knows.

And also, no girl is good enough for me, one girl I want to date I am making an exception with her weight, but she may not get back to me, but she drinks wine like every day and I feel like she would yell at our children. She may not be interested in me and think I am a disgusting pig because of my music or website or because I have had to pay women for sex because they reject me so many times that I give up and give in to the easy life.

One of my doctors when I was a kid the one, I told to him that when I was molested, he responded by feeding me all sorts of pills. Maybe to cause memory loss to forget those memories. But that would be a conspiracy if pills were for that and correcting behavior.

I also looked up Drake is the ATF means All things Fresh, but it is also a group of police.

Drake but he’s extra chill for an hour

Travis Scott and Drake but they are chill Lofi Mix Chillaf

Rap songs but they chill 5 lofi Chill af ft. future Soulja boy, meek mill, and playboy carti