Thoughts on the shutdown & Undercovers & The voices in my head

Thoughts on the shutdown & Undercovers & the voices in my head

If I do the shut down when they ask me to for the application or whatever, I can make a website only very few with programs will be able to find, and just practice posting with a super small audience as I leave this one down temporarily may need to call my web design guy to set it up with me and all that with Avada, but here is the thing it won’t be the end of the world, I know tons of you love me or hated me then grew to love me, it takes time to get to know me. It is all one sided, but I sometimes feel like I can imagine how some of you are like imaginary friends per se, with my schizophrenia.

My girl left me drained today and happy, she tasted like candy all that 69 all day.

Even an undercover officer who had to sleep with the same girl for 2 years to get all her plugs and traffickers in trouble would say “Even though I worked deep cover for all that time and caught them, and had sex with a hot annoying chick all the time, I wish I had the freedom to have fun like Gabe, I protect that freedom.” The freedom to post and talk.

I’ve been doing drawing like daily I just want to get better! May share some stuff I’ve done in the future.

Hay man look I am schizophrenic I am not an undercover pretending to be as a cover which they can do, and I need to take my meds the rest of my life, would need to inject this Semaglutide once a week in my belly till my 60s, maybe get off my meds in my 60s or something or 50s. We can try, I don’t know, but I am hoping all goes well with school for now.

Another good topic I could revisit is that I feel like cops or important people talk into my ear somehow with a small device that is locked into my ear and I talk out loud back to them and I act omnipresent like the Omni King and I walk around my house all day talking to myself thinking of ideas and what to write for the day, it is so random that if I had a wife and she heard me do that I would tell her some BS or explain to her it is my disorder. They showed me in rehab how serious that disorder of Schizophrenia is in that movie Beautiful Mind, and one thing they said all the time is “Never get off your meds.” And unfortunately, when they tried, my whole world unraveled poorly.

I may wait till I am done with all schooling and may work a job for a year and switch to Cobenfy which is daytime meds or Vraylar because Saphris knocks me out at night, and I may need to wake up early for work at a Game Design company if I get the internship that leads to the job.

I don’t think Joe Rogan is smoking weed in that video with Mark, so hopefully its fine enjoy. Facebook and Instagram will have freedom of speech soon.

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