Giving up the benzos trying to give up my grudges got one. And the meds I will be taking and school update

Giving up the benzos trying to give up my grudges got one. And the meds I will be taking and school update

I got prescribed Buspirone and it helps me with anxiety I purposely asked him and bull shitted with my doctor back and forth about how I tried Xanax all those years and how I tried koldopin not even a year ago. And I told him “I am just afraid of having no motivation to do anything any more.” And basically he recommends Buspirone since I couldn’t remember the anti anxiety med I took in rehab.

I plan on taking 1 or 2 of them a day, and I will be switching hopefully to the Vraylar or Cobenfy during school break it is the same exact thing as the Saphris except the Saphris has some down sides, taking it at night puts me to sleep for 8 hours or more, I can over sleep, it makes me to groggy in the day. Vraylar however and even cobenfy has even less sedative qualities, Vraylar is taken in the morning before my meal and it sedates me enough, I got Adderall instant release which is optional or for the day I take like 4 classes at a time. My doctor used to never want to give it to me because he thought my delusions would get worse.

As for that it would be the Vraylar or Cobenfy with the Buspirone every day, once a day each etc. And the Adderall instant release once or twice a day depending on me. And I would be giving up that stupid Saphris, I would rather go to bed naturally at 10pm or sooner and wake up at 5 or 6am, and be refreshed. I want to feel good, well come to think of it, if I end up trying Vraylar and if its to sedating maybe the Cobenfy is better but it still sedates.

I have one grudge I need to let go against the dumb chiropractor, I will forgive him because my mom taught me to move on from these things. What he did to me was despicable banning me from his office, and acting like I did some serious infraction toward him and his family, if only he knew how psychotic that made me and my mother and other people in my life. Just because I chose to share with him my link, to my old website which contained me promoting things I shouldn’t have, looking back on it, I know I was wrong for some of those delusions, as you would say.

But I refuse to apologize to a man who denies medical attention to a patient like me, even if I was a registered sex offender “Which thankfully I am not” I deserve treatment like everyone else. But he was arrogant enough to force me out of his office.

And the school update, I am working toward the alternative hopefully but they may approve or deny my request, the lady was very hard hitting with her questions on how hard did she think I tried, “I joked with my therapist about how annoying she sounded” but it is what it is, its her job, I did drugs in my life and I rarely take my adhd meds and it doesn’t make me suddenly be able to pass this hard civic test, it is hard as hell. The reason I do so well with math is because I study for hours on end with a tutor, and they allow open notes so I can look at formulas and examples I have so I can guarantee a passing score from all my studying. It is my second time taking this class but with a different professor who allows open notes.

And not only that I went off the meds that help me function as an adult they stabilize me, and I was talking crazier and crazier, and refusing to get back on it, so basically where that lands me, is don’t refuse your meds when you need to take them.

Also, the mic situation it cost 295 to fix it, and I decided to get it paid and fixed waiting for them to get back to me so my cleaning lady can pick it up. You will hear a major difference from the 500 dollar mic and the 3 grand mic, but I may upgrade my interface as well.

I refuse to upload all the new songs I got ready to share till I have reposted all the old posts only like 68 pages of word doc left. I was posting like 5 at a time as you noticed.

Even mark my lawyer at one point told me “Don’t promote alcohol on your website.” On some old songs I sang or rapped about drinking but now I don’t.

I do want to pursue music possibly after I graduate from the game design school, but I may pursue music full time with more support from my family if I finish the game design school which should be when and not if.

I am happy the Semaglutide and daily exercise has me dropping down to 160 pounds or lower was starting at 232 now I am at 214 ish, and I will get there by the beginning of next year, and I can start music videos and look good and feel great. Avoided benzos so my fans can be proud of me.

When some of you see my game design you will see its a game based off Runescape mechanics but with explicit questing or celebrity questing. If only a big artist could discover me one day and if I could pursue music and game design I would be so happy. Also the update button join club may be down for good now, until I either get a new emailing system or just hit refresh on home once a day to see if I posted, flush cache some times, on your browser, (I usually post daily or once every 2 days) and also maybe use x.com in the future to link it to blog posts, not sure yet I am on the fence, I don’t want comments lol.

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Surviving Off Chipotle for 30 days love the runescape music he puts in the background it is my dream company but I told my mom I can move to los angeles to pursue music when I graduate