A drawing of vegeta from dragon ball z.

I got approved! The Civic Substitution, I can do that eventually

Not sure when they mail me the details to that, but I got approved, they asked me some hard questions, but I answered to the best of my ability.

“Why don’t you do more zoom sessions?”

“How much did you study every day to prepare?” Etc.

I was like a few things came to mind. That I responded.

“I did drugs, and it messed up my brain. I can even take Adderall and still flunk the civic because it relies on memorization and mine is messed up.”

“I don’t retain information well.”

They ask, “How did you do so well in your recent classes.”

“Well, they are open notes, so basically I did well because I could read off my notes and have formulas for the math stuff etc.”

 

I am on the fence if there is too much math in programming but may try 3 or 4 classes one day to see if I can handle it. With a tutor who teaches me and helps me and class lectures on top of that. As long as its not intense in math but who knows we will see. Worst Case switch to the other one, if the benzo and Adderall kick in LOL. And the antipsychotic got me weak already. But again, may stick to the art side, no idea.

Maybe if I take tons of Adderall and have a tutor, I can pass the computer science stuff. Drugs really messed up my brain. But I have heard I may need to stick to the digital media side since I didn’t do computer science, but I would ask an advisor how may classes with my transcripts I need and calculate if I can do it.

And I am sure tons of you will be happy that I am not dropping the N Bomb in new songs, and will try to sell some albums and give some out, maybe the next 2 for sale, give the 500 dollar mic ones for free eventually, but need to record that album, and then in the future free instrumentals or some I got stolen that I use as fair use for free and rotate to 1 or 2 for sale then 1 for free and rotate.

And I am going to disagree with Goblin on the Xanax comments, I took it for years and never abused it, and it didn’t ruin my life. As long as I am in school it won’t matter, but if you try upping your dosage and also getting it illegally that is where I will agree. Buspar gives me headaches and makes me feel like shit and he thinks you can just smoke all your anxiety away well guess what I don’t want to have the munchies 24/7 I need to lose weight, I can’t function daily on weed like some people, I wish I could. I am more recreational smoke for a day or 2 possibly no dabbing since I have never done that serious addiction, I think big pharma is better overall for mental health then weed, but that is my opinion.

Imagine if my mother took my disorders and said “Yeah smoke that weed, and don’t take the pills that will keep you sane.” Some parents are that reckless and think a plant is more safe then different chemicals in different medications, the truth is your lungs will give out one day and lung cancer is still a real thing and car crashes if your to high driving and I drove on Xanax for years with no problems.

I Am immune to molly

21 Grams later Goblin

Stealing a Lawn Mower for Xanax