Trump on dealers what do you think & New meds

I hate that my mom sends me some of these videos which describe life without medication and tapering. I wish I could but when I did it, I went completely delusional.

And when my mother and family and doctor encouraged me to get off my meds for school, I had a psychiatric break and delusions forming in my head and emailed my lovely teacher weird things!

I seriously have delusions man I can’t control these things. Like why do I feel the need to email or talk to people in strange ways.

I also took benzos for many years along side with my antipsychotics and used to smoke cigarettes like crazy, but I quit all that besides the antipsychotics, and the benzos made me not care about a lot of things.

Got the new meds prescribed technically trying Cobenfy twice a day which is 2 older meds combined, and if something goes wrong, I switch to the Olanzapine tablets which you swallow and nothing dissolving damaging my teeth. But what would go wrong If its literally 2 old antipsychotics that treat schizophrenia combined.

Tempting to say that taking one medication once a night is best and sleep 8 or 9 hours and wake up refreshed, but again Cobenfy may be more effective. Because if I take the Olanzapine, I know a little of what its like and I start at 5mg a night at bed, and do that for months on end, but Cobenfy sounds more promising, Urine Retention hopefully not a huge issue in few patients.

I just don’t know why I want to be loved or remembered by people, is it some grand delusion that I could be super famous one day. And is Trump wrong for saying in the video you will see below to shoot dealers since they technically kill people, and addicts ruin lives, let me think about that, because I was caught and I was bad, and I hung around them, but I was hardly a dealer, and basically it was Meth only.

And I was given another chance, even though it took many years to beat the case. I hate life sometimes because I did drop out in 2017 and came back in 2023 slowly into school. And I am just now finishing everything, may do online classes only at the next campus and make it rare if I go physically, and if I even talk about myself to people it would be like “I got a blog I post on every day but I don’t want to offend the class with my beliefs or share it, and I make music.” Maybe meet a friend or 2 but I am 30 for God Sakes and all that.

I mean they talk like I should taper off in a rehab or something off all meds and then work in the real world as a game designer but what if I make a big boo boo in the company, or some weird email and then I get in trouble? Maybe meds would save me from these thoughts.

 

Bill Gates Anxious Generation on Bill’s Blog see Bill Blogs also LOL

 

Tough Guys Get Humbled After Fighting Police

Bro has been in prison since GTA 5

Trump: Death Penalty for Drug Dealers What is your thoughts on this? And what if the hookers and johns are sober? You shouldn’t affiliate them with each other. 

Inside the Largest Prison in Texas

Inside The Hoods of Boston

Tapering Meds