Some Deep Confessions of the Soul from Augusto Gabe. Bro my inheritance better be people and money not just money I need socializing, and friendships

I sometimes wonder if I could conquer my depression. I don’t think I ever will be able to. And I have like 100 topics, not off the top of my head that come to me over time. I am just an author who lives somewhere near Orlando. I get judged by people probably who hold my past against me, I may never land the right job, or I may have to settle for a gas station. But I got school in the works and some music as my hobby, and I play video games with my bro bro because I am very lonely in this world.

You see one day my parents will die of old age, and the only person I will have in this world would be my brother and maybe a new dog, not many people care about me, I cry sometimes because of how easily it is to get judged. I forgive the people who have wronged me for my old website, when I was just believing in myself. I hated some of the conspiracies I made, like the ones about rehabs stealing sperm, that was just lazy writing.

But you know I am going to eventually try dog parks to make friends, not score with a chick, to see if I can take things slow. Maybe a friendship app or maybe not, I do know Wesley has a beautiful girlfriend Jessica and Wesley and Jessica are both on the heavier side which I want to avoid for myself, but I love them deeply, and I don’t give a shit if they like to eat, they do walk at Disney with the kids a lot to lose weight. But that is a good thing, I just want them to be healthy because I am alone in this world.

One day I am going to have to see my own inheritance no matter how immense it might be, the money that my parents leave behind even if it was 10 or 20 or more million and they own like a few hundred properties I think, I would be well off even with a small percentage of what they leave, I would never have to work.

I won’t give up on school, I promise, but sometimes I wish I could just lie and not take my antipsychotics, which are my meds, they piss me off so much. But Bella my dog wakes me up at 6amish now which is good, drink my coffee around 7ish and I will drink like 2 or 3 pots throughout the day. I am trying to convince my doctor that I am no longer delusional, and I can handle a stimulant like Adderall for test taking and math and as well as in general for all my classes. The appointment for my Ozempic got canceled because other people were ahead of me.

So yeah, Dog Parks, Friendship apps (not sure if I will do the apps), School friends may do some classes in person, the only problem with one summer class is if I do it in person I have to drive to a far campus, and I hate that, but it would be more fun and it is hours long. I would say that once I get into UCF I could live at a dorm and keep my home and not have to rent it out and go to the 3 classes I take at a time of digital media one day, which is to graduate in Game Design.

I may have to understand more as I get older what I can and cannot say, it is tricky. I want a boss who is understanding but hey I am years away from that moment, and if I do the civic literacy assessment which I have to study for, on a stimulant while also taking the one class that is basically using programs, I will do fine, and pass well. And for fall hopefully that great teacher I offended will forgive me, she is a sweet lady with a beautiful child and a great loving husband, I feel ashamed for some of my old posts. But you know if I could ever be forgiven even by her family it is appreciated.

I will always like the Hangry Bison even if they don’t hire me, maybe they know to much about me or don’t need someone right now, but giving up on my dreams of my website, and giving up on my child fans and my adult fans just to get a job assuming it was something they didn’t like about me would be pointless.

I am sure some J Mods who work as employees at Jagex hold blogs and share stuff which is considered like the CIA, and they could share rap music and stuff, it would just depend on how conservative your boss is. I am just really depressed right now, going to avoid taking another Alprazolam 0.5mg Extended release lol. I took one around 1pm today, it is from an old stash a year old the Xanax, that is the other name for it, I am coming down from the 1mg dose of yesterday. But my dog is here to keep me company and I swam at my parents pool for like 20 to 25 minutes, it is nice being rich but I hate how I talk with women sometimes, I need to remember friendship is always more important first.

And sorry if not all my posts are this deep, sometimes I just want to rant or share stories make you guys smile or laugh. Maybe the CIA or FBI recruits me when I get my inheritance or maybe I just do well at school and learn more as I get older. I will try to post every day but sometimes I may not. It will be at random, so instead of complaining and hitting refresh so many times on the home page, subscribe and confirm your email, I won’t use it. Take care

Skeler Hard Wave (oldschool fans of mine who put up with my shit and conspiracies of the past will remember a lot of my mixes including this one)

Trappin in JAPAN 10 I always wished I could trap in Japan lol no just kidding but I want to learn the language because of James Hong I think he is like the coolest CIA guy, I wrote conspiracies about him being an assassin in the past but I could be wrong, just all fantasy and delusional writing, he would be convicted. But he is a smart guy and I like him. Could it be a mask like the Emma Stone video I showed? God Damn, lmao Michael don’t punch me! (the kid from rehab that story)

I want to be immortal Lmao Omg love the first song on this Mix Shazam the artist it is a great music video, however I will tell you if I ever release those bad songs I made which I debate if I should or not, it would need to be classified as fantasy like Slim Shady making Criminal, because Criminal talks about killing people so joking about kid stuff maybe not everyone will find it funny, maybe I shouldn’t I will try not to, it was like 2 albums out of the 14 I think that I did that a lot on, I forget.