Fantasy after life and more

I think fantasy can be a good thing because we all want to be kids at heart in a way with innocence and parents protecting us and living in joy. Getting away with some of the things we say because it’s just fun.

I will no longer say heaven because of Christianity and me not being a Christian. But I will say I think sex and power will still be a thing in the afterlife. But maybe it’s like other worlds that are brains get transported to. I would imagine in this fantasy it is like dragon ball super. Not in every aspect but people being able to fly and train like Goku or maybe we get to pick what we want.

I would like to think, if I could be immortal or a Saiyan who could live 500 years in my next life and obviously another after life after that, but the Saiyan me could train with people, and get muscle and have a great family, like in Dragon Ball Super. In reality it is all fantasy to say this, just don’t get to convinced because hey maybe we do turn into cherubim and sing for God, no one knows, that would be so boring bro, I mean seriously.

One of the guys at the first rehab FHE was a pissed off black dude who was a cop who was basically in trouble, I felt bad for him don’t remember his name etc. But I heard his sleeping with a girl in his room, I heard them go at it lol, I ratted them out, “If I ain’t getting any, you ain’t getting any.”

I have considered coming off this benzo though, don’t think I need it, going to stop taking it for now, let me see if exercise alone makes me feel better, I use my parents pool, and go to a gym near my house to do the treadmill and weights, so 3 or 4 days out of the week I exercise, however I should make it every day. I gained a few, but hey Mod Kiren and Mod Ash and other Mods at Jagex are on the round plum size, lmao they look so cool, I am like “thinking to myself, how are they so confident looking like that.” But I guess that could happen to me with all these meds.

Getting Ozempic prescribed to me soon to manage my weight though, so I only eat twice a day and healthy stuff on top of that, but as for Benzos I thought they made you eat less, I was tempted to eat a Wendy’s burger at night I shouldn’t have regret it big time. But yes I may get the script of Xanax 0.5mg extended release twice a day 30 day supply with 2 refills just only in case of emergency with my bad panic attacks and anxiety. Mod Ash be like “Ugh Huh” lmao.

But in the after life we all need to get along, no religion anymore and spirituality unites us, and we don’t hurt each other, we agree so much on topics, super powers could exist, immortality, sex could be around maybe with threesomes oof hopefully lol I only need 1 woman though in this life, one day I will search this Benzo has me to relaxed but it helps with the panic attacks and anxiety.

Oh man I over did it for all the content I lost, lol here is like a lot of “If your reading this its too late” easier to memorize for me, moving slow lol jk but I remember it. And Eminem “Music to be murdered by” and some racial movie which is funny, some great actors in it. Can be a little offensive so maybe don’t let your kids watch. It is called Don’t be a menace in south central while drinking your orange juice (i think)

Popular songs but they are chill af for way too long Lofi Mix CHILLAF (lmao bart from the Simpsons and his nerdy friend I forget his name, oh Mill house) lmao