More about my life and mistakes etc.

This was going to be my home page, to update my followers, but I guess I was to nervous, I will fix anything, I usually go back and fix things. Enjoy, sometimes my posts may not be long sometimes they could be, it all depends on my mood.

Hello everybody to my 10,000 or 50,000 or 10 million followers. I am so bored. I was in rehab in fort Lauderdale. I am now back in Orlando area. Maybe 30 million followers You know the thing is, when I look at all posts and see the traffic on them, it claims either 0 views or 17 views per post, which is such a croc. I used to advertise the website with flyers like passing out 10,000 of them to houses and cars, and I also had a bumper sticker on my car for years with the website on it, and word of mouth when fans shared me. Not to mention law enforcement, FBI, CIA, and their families, and even kids through word of mouth, people on Xbox who see my tag GoogleGabe94, and YouTube comments of Gabe 94 dot com, etc. I realize some people will follow and love me and some people it will take them time to understand me, it just depends on their personality type. And if they understand mental health and entertainment. Hopefully I grow on some of you.

I have gone through the program Alcoholics anonymous and narcotics anonymous not sure if I’ll continue the program outside now with my freedom and all I am over 8 years sober from meth and other hard drugs. It is not a bad program, but I feel like I get more out of sharing my stories and fantasy writing here on this website, it frees my soul and it makes me feel better about myself.

But I am recently clean off alcohol for good and even cigarettes. I take pills now again. One day hope to be off them but scared of mania so it would have to be a careful process or may stick to them for the rest of my life, I am not sure. I take an antipsychotic called Saprhis 5mg and at night it knocks me out for 8 hours usually, and I do not take the 10mg anymore because it would make me sleep 10 hours or more. And once in a while for anxiety the lowest dose of a Benzo, prescribed to me, to relax, but it makes sex not as pleasurable. May in the future try a stimulant to pass math etc. I felt like a lot of the kids getting As on those tests were taking stimulants, not fair man I got serious ADHD I even had to study the test review twice at the day of the test, it was such a pain.

I will still sometimes try to be who I always was but a more respectable version of myself. Explain my words better and make better music because I wish to be a better individual. I make rap and R & B as a hobby and I have been operating my website augustogabe.com for like 10 years or more since 2014 and this website is my new focus. Now Gabe94.com is the main website easier for fans to remember, and Augusto94.com is music only. And Augustogabe.com reserve it for whatever happens in the future, not sure it has a long history don’t want some scammer to buy it and such. But as for every other link you saw, it will be erased eventually.

I have standup comedy material one day I may use in private for friends or when I am older. Like a mix between Bill Burr and Chris Rock. I make music like Eminem and Drake and the weekend etc. I have used fair use copy right material songs on other websites and I use fair use for copyright to educate people and entertain them.

Just try not to take all my music and stories literal. I will tell you stories about my recovery. I was abused as a child and that is a terrible thing in itself. I forgave my abuser. He was my biological dad however I didn’t ever press charges just remembered him nude etc. I will not reveal his identity for his own safety. Not everyone is going to agree with me on these things, maybe I should have, or maybe my mom did try to prosecute him because I think I once got an email from his lawyer that said I was slandering him when I was 17, and because of that he stopped talking to me and disowned me.

I hope you understand I want to get married one day and be a father and have children with a woman and I have confronted personal fears to not idolize children in a sexual way ever again. Since I was molested, I thought it was a normal thing for a long time. But forgive me for being stubborn. I have never acted on those emotions, and I don’t want to spend my life in prison or scar a young girl. I think age of consent should be 16 or 17 or 18 it just depends on the government. But again, maybe it should be in the 20s the age of consent, I just think a 20-year-old shouldn’t get in trouble with a 16-year-old if they date. I was cautious not to date this one 16-year-old girl who was the daughter of one of our maids from my past. She wanted to hang out at that age, and I avoided her, even when she became 18, I just didn’t like that she lived so far, and that it would have been complicated. But she is a perfect girl, I wish her the best of luck.

I also want to state I am shady God, I have it tattooed on my arm. And Jonathan, my cousin who over dosed on purpose on pills on my other arm and some other photos of my other tattoos I will show. I hope if you are fans or Christians or atheists you will respect my mental disorder and beliefs I am a wacky scientist the way I talk and I am a gentlemen like a Kingsman. Love that movie series with Eggsy.

I am also becoming an atheist because I have realized all my personal beliefs in a God were delusional and caused my delusional disorder. I just believed some people were evil and that drove me crazy and caused me mania, and I believed to much in hell fire and that people in this world would go to hell, and I honestly want to be forgiven for my Christian beliefs, the only good side to Christianity is forgiving people, other then that I do not agree with a terrible after life, like I said with that one comment if there is an afterlife even Hitler could make it their as a kid who is punished for his crimes but the universe could be merciful to him (he was a meth user and he had mental health issues) I do not agree with genocide or his crimes, it was evil. But maybe he would be a kid in the spirit world, and he could cry and see how the world has changed. I believe to much in second chances even for monsters, especially in the afterlife, that is what makes me an atheist/agnostic who believes in my own spirituality.

I believe we were created by the universe and an afterlife does exist but that only the smartest of people can ever know how to cross over while alive which is technically science fiction or maybe it’s my delusional disorder. But truly if I died and if I was a good person and the universe deems me worthy maybe I could wear a mask or transform with magical powers into a human and visit people who need help on earth. I believe we should help people on earth, but we should expect them to get their shit together, even atheism wants you to get your shit together and to study and graduate and get a job etc. I feel like typing is so much better than a podcast, I hate those podcasts with millions of views, they just buy views, meanwhile I probably do have 10s of millions of views but I can’t prove it, it is just love of fans following me.

However, if I preach Christianity and say Jesus was a good man and leave it like that, it is a good thing, he taught us some good things, I can’t prove if he was a fictitious character in history or if he was real. But that would mean followers of Kanye West and Eminem and Drake and of me Augusto Gabe could believe in me so much that they think we will reunite in the spirit world in the afterlife, and that doesn’t make them crazy. So, one day new religions with our beliefs and messages could be created, a more evolved society.

I apologize to my fans for trying to look for too much revenge and I did it wrong for a long time. The best revenge is succeeding at a job or at college or at something. And it takes time for all of us to learn what we are good at and get better. But it is okay if you fall flat on your face or if you just want to be an average joe, I want to succeed in this world, I want to go beyond an average joe, but I believe my education is super important, and I will never forget what I have learned on my journey.

Rihanna Anti Some of the songs from it

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